So, today I opened my Facebook to see a friend request...from my ex-husband's sister. *sigh*
Let me tell you a little backstory on this woman: she's a narcissist, just like her mother, but she also hates her brother (my ex). And I assume she heard about my beef with him and now wants me to spill the tea on the whole situation.
But here's the thing: when I cut the cords with Will, I cut them with the whole Bowser family. When the kids decided to stop talking to him, I then made the choice to stop talking to ALL of them. Why?
Because they're just drama and will suck me in and then ignore me when they are done with me. And, not to mention, they will use every little thing I tell them against me, if they can. My youngest son and I recently went to a family reunion and she ignored us for over 30 minutes. IN FACT, everyone ignored us for like 30 minutes, and we sat alone doing nothing, almost ready to walk out the door. I've had this happen too many times, where some jerkoff invites you to something and ignores you either the entire time or a huge chunk of time. Who the fuck does that? Oh yeah, narcissists do.
It's like one in the morning right now, otherwise I'd spill the tea about all the horrible things I've been through with this woman. But I am just tired of it. And I don't want to dedicate one more moment of my life to her. She's not worth it. She's awful: a horrible mother, a horrible aunt, a horrible sister-in-law, and a horrible sister. She's just the worst.
So, I am done. No more games. I am going to go delete her friend request right now. There, I did it.
See, there is a part of me that wants to tell her about him (my ex). That wants to bitch to her about what he said and did to my kids. I want to set all these fuckers straight. But I know better and I cannot fall back into old habits, just because I don't have a friend outside of my house to talk about this stuff with. But I need to ignore that part of me, that "old me" that wants to fall back into old habits, and become something better that that.
I am trying. But I am weak. But I will do my best to not indulge in conversation with her. She's awful and mean and horrible, and I need to remember that.
Wish me luck.