She's back at it, ladies and gents.  I am now the great superhero UBER DAUGHTER!  Dun dun DUUUNNN!  I am, again, the best thing since sliced bread!  After, recently, she was bashing me for every little thing I was doing (really, it was just days ago....), I am, all of a sudden, amazing again! 

Did I ever tell you about the time I came over to visit and everyone was at her house (everyone meaning her team of neighbors she feels are dumber than she is) and I walked in...and she got everyone to start cheering and clapping and calling my name? 

Yeah.  That was FUCKING WEIRD.

I am not quite at that stage again, but close. 

New mom is "laughy jokey, won't get off the phone-y" mom instead of "grumpy, pissy, everything is frumpy" ma. 

I almost hate this mom more.  Why?  Because it's the fakest of the fakest shit you can ever put your finger on.  When she's pissed, I know she's being real.  But when she's like this?  A) she seems almost manic and b) there is an inevitable fall that is GOING to happen, and I (or my kids) are going to get the brunt of it.  Normally it's me, because my kids pretty much stay the hell away from her, knowing her mood swings are nothing to be messed with. 

I know what to expect when she's angry and crazy.  But when she's UBER FUCKING HAPPY and crazy, I have no idea when it's going to end and when it's going to blow up in my face. 

Because it will.  It always does. 

And that fear scares me more.  Though I will say my anxiety has been THRU THE ROOF lately with her angry and irritated behavior, so maybe I can try to let this be a reprieve from all that?  It's so very hard to enjoy these little spurts of being the "golden child".  But since it's back again, I will try.  But I won't get sucked in...I never do (though sometimes I do a little and let my guard down and say things I should not--like things she can use against me, because I mistakenly trust her). 

How about you?  Does your mom go back and forth?  It think mine does because a) I assume she's bipolar (she used to be a raging alcoholic, too) and/or b) I am an only child. 

Well, yeah, let's ride this wave out, together, shall we?   And see where it takes us!  Wanna take bets on how long it lasts?  If you go back through my old blogs, you can see where this has happened several times in the past and go from there how long her old cycles lasted.  If you win, I will send you....um.....I don't know.  Oh I know, I will send you a bag of chips that they only make in my town :)  I can't tell you what kind, but you'll like them.  Everyone does :) 

So yeah, I keep you all posted on her moods and see when I am the total shithole daughter again!  Whoo hoo! Till then, my friends :)