The other day our mutual friend took BM (Lisa) to the grocery store and BM looks at my friend and says "We're like her family."  Meaning her and our friend, talking about mother.  My friend doesn't have a great memory so she can't remember what they were talking about to begin with (or maybe she just doesn't want me to know....talking about me perhaps?  Possibly.)

My friend looks at her and says "We aren't her family, she has family. Girl Lost is her family.  We are her friends and neighbors, that's it."  BM shut up after that, but apparently inside of BM's warped little brain she thinks that she's my mother's daughter (she calls her mom--and somehow my mother found out that this bothers me, so she tells BM not to call her mom in front of me---WTF?  Why let her call you that at all???)  This coupled with telling BM on the phone "If you aren't here, who will take care of me?" makes me want to piss fire ants all over her face!  And when I say "her" I mean BM AND mother.

I swear to god, I am counting down the days until we get rid of her car!  I need to clean the seats (because apparently water stains the upholstery in that car) and clean it real nice and just bring it back and be done with it.  But the issue is I need a new car to buy first as my oldest son has a job and needs something to get to work.

Back when I tried to talk mother into giving the car back to the dealership, she was saying behind our backs "I can't wait to see (my oldest son) get up to take his dad to work so he can have the car for work!"  She was being snarky, like he couldn't do it.  She's such a fucking bitch, I swear.  Actually she's just a horrible person who doesn't deserve anything from me at all.  Last year or the year before she was making fun of him for not being able to get a job "because of his anxiety!" ("anxiety" was said in a sing-song childish voice to make fun of him).

But back to BM.  I am just waiting...biding my time, until I can get that crazy bitch out of our lives.  Even my friend said that it always seems like BM wants to horn her way into my family and take over.  And even though mother has a love/hate relationship with her (she's like addicted to BM), she lets her.  So I want to be done with this and just let BM be her daughter instead of me.  Because this is tiresome and I am so ready to be done with her.  With them both.

OR I am waiting until I can put mother in a home and I will never tell BM where I put her LOL  Or have mother get bad enough that I can change the locks and never let BM around ever again.

But I'd rather just walk away.  It would better for my sanity and the sanity of my family.

One day, this will be a real choice for us.  But for now, I will just put up with what I have to in order to survive without going insane.