I have felt so much better these past few days.  I kept doing everything I could think of to get this shit to pass on by, and it did, thank freaking goodness.  The last time this happened, I was down for a week (literally and figuratively).  And, as of today, my sleeping schedule seems to be back on track, as well.  I am very happy about all of that.  Even my "weepy depression" seems to have abated (and I was getting worried, as it seemed to be getting pretty bad--though I reminded myself that I've been that way a few times in my life, so it wasn't that out of the ordinary, it's just been a really long time).    

As for my mother, she had a shitty day on Wednesday.  We bought a new car through Carvana (and as of right now, I never want to buy a car through anywhere else again!) and she was mean and rude to everyone all day, but mostly my oldest son.  Also, she refused to take a ride in the car unless we took her somewhere to spend money.  She literally said that.  As though it was a threat, which cracks me up because I don't give two squats if she ever rides in the car.  But today, she got my kids to take her to the gas station (this time they're making sure she's using hand sanitizer and washing her hands and not touching her face), so they took the new car.  Which is a hybrid, btw.  We bought a home charger for it, too, off Amazon, which did trip our breakers, which sucks.  But we'll see if we can plug it in somewhere else, on a different breaker.  Also, the next day, she was back to her old self again.  She was just mad that we were buying a car and she wasn't.  She literally told me "We coudl have put the car in MY name!"  And I was so confused, because why would we do that?  

I can't wait to move.  I have so many ideas for a new house and I am super excited about house hunting, too.  My hubby has a great lead on a new job next month that MAY allow him to work from home (eeeekkkk!! I am so excited!!)  This house drives me batty, as it needs new electrical, a new driveway (and expanded driveway), and so much more.  

If this car works out, we'll be giving back my mom's car pretty soon.  I want to make sure there's enough money to pay for the new payment, as well as we do not need 3 cars.  I'll call the bank next week or the week after and tell them she can't drive so she doesn't need a car.  I took her license away, although it had expired last year.  I am so surprised she never asked to renew it LOL  She must need av driver's test.  And she would 100% fail that, but I would even allow her to take it if it came up since getting behind the wheel could mean instant death to anyone either in the car or near her (she can't even walk a straight line, much less drive one).  Also, she was under the impression (due to a lie she made up in her mind) that we were going to sell our other car, as a way to deal with our 3 car situation.  Why would I sell my 2nd car, the one I just bought last summer, just to keep a car that if she went into a home, the state would take it?  Yeah, no.  This is why we bought a 2nd car to begin with.  Because we need 2 cars.  

So anyways, she's been good for the most part.  Except for Wednesday.  Although, I cannot her behavior on the car buying process as she woke up SUPER hyper, and was being all up in everyone's business all day.  She was acting like she used to.  Funny, how you can get so used to better behavior and forget horrible wretched behavior ever happened.  Until it happens again and you're reminded of how someone used to be every single day of their lives.  Good grief.  We've come a long way, baby.  I cannot imagine having to live two entire years with her like that.  I'd have gotten into WAY more fights with her and been WAY more stressed out if that was the case.  Thank goodness she settled down after coming back from rehab and I took all her power away.  Give her a single ounce of power and she's like a monster again.  So I am not sure what caused her behavior to revert back on Wednesday, but I really really REALLY hope it's not indicative of what's to come.  She even threatened that day to go walking by herself again (to which I replied she'd get locked in the house--although not really, just locked out of going out to the front yard, to which she replied she'd go out the window, so I said good luck with that).  

I just hope these days are not coming back with any kind of regularity.  That will not be pleasant for us.  But I am not afraid to tell her to stop now, not like I used to be.  She's very lucky I didn't have it out with her about being mean to my son, as I already had talked to her about that before.  But that's my mother, you have to talk to her and yell at her for at least a year if not more to get her to actually stop doing most things.  Take her not opening my bedroom door.  She didn't stop that until recently, almost TWO YEARS after we moved in.  Nobody should have to ask someone for TWO ENTIRE YEARS to stop invading their privacy for them to finally stop.  That's just really insane.  She refuses to open my door now, thank goodness (though she did yesterday because our silly kids locked the dog in my bedroom again--I hope that's also not indicative of what's to come back again).  So I FINALLY feel comfortable in my own room and safe from her invading my space.  Like it was literally giving me panic attacks every time she opened my door, because she abuses her privileges...she'll open my door to let a dog in, then she'll catch my eye and open it wider and come into my room to "chat" me about something she wants or want me to do.  It's never just an innocent "letting the dog in".  She has to push and push and push to see what she can get away with in every single instance.  Which is why taking care of her is a relentless and grueling job and which is why I limit her time in stores.  She tries to buy everything she can, she tries to get away with not cleaning her hands or wearing her mask (she will remove it in stores).  Everything is a push for control, and it's always negative.  Even when she had all the power.  "You can't tell ME what to do!"  She has ODD so badly.  If you have a kid with severe ODD, know that's the kind of old person they will be.  It's beyond exhausting.  

I cannot wait until we move though, even if she were to come with us.  The kids want to move to TX, but we have to buy a house here, in the beautiful northeast, first.  As my hubby needs to stay with his job for a period of time.  Though, if he works from home, we may be able to go anywhere.  But we'll see.  I love our town, for the most part, and would be sad to move way.  The last time we tried to was due to desperation.  Now, out of choice, would we really choose to leave here?  Probably.  But who knows.  

Okay, that's about it.  For now.  Let's hope Wednesday was a one-off thing that won't happen again for a long time.  Cross your fingers.