Right now I am printing the pages to a new journal I am going to create.  I am going to try a different way of creating this one, compared to my normal hardcover journals.  And this one is only going to have one signature, but it shall be stuffed with ephemera.  My normal way to make journals is to make writing journal on hand-dyed paper.  But today I am creating one that's more for adding things into than writing.  And of course, in true ADHD Shay style, I took and ruined an entire sheet by printing an entire page over another one, right after I was done printing the back.  That's a LOT of ink to waste.  Ugh.  Oh well.  I am reprinting now.  

I am having issues making my signatures fit in such a way that looks seamless.  They always get messed up and are crooked most of the time, which is discouraging.  But maybe it works, I don't know.  We'll see.  

My biggest fear is that I create my items and nobody buys them.  That's what's happened so far.  I've made books on Amazon, printed books for writing in (different types of journals) and I've not had a single sale.  Granted, they are lone books in a sea of other created books, so I need to market them, but ugh.  I am a creator, not a workhorse.  But in today's world. you have to be everything.  So, I guess that means pushing myself to do all that needs to be done, otherwise I don't stand a chance in selling anything.  So annoying.  I just want to create.  

I guess that's the price you pay for not being able to work outside the home, right?  You don't get to be just one thing.  You have to be all the things, otherwise you're lost in the shuffle of all the other people who know how to do it right.  I don't have a choice here.  It's either create for fun or create and edit and market and package and everything else for profit.  Those are your two choices.  

Well, l just need to finish several projects to get them listed and get my shop open.  I also need to sew some stuff, too.  I have so much to do and I am stalling by purchasing items to create with, rather than creating.  I wish I could find a way past the wall of creator's block and just get this shit done.  

I'm always so gung ho about doing the things, until I actually have to do the things.  Sigh.  Okay, enough stalling, back to work.  

I remember when Saturday nights were for fun LOL