Well, what the fuck?  Mr. Brooks and I were sick for two weeks in November, and now I've been sick for almost two weeks, starting on the 25th of November.  And this time?  It was bad, mainly because I could barely eat for all this time, which make me weak and feel utterly horrible and I ended up losing 15lbs.  I had a bacterial food poisoning called something I cannot pronounce and it had made me sick for around a week.  I have never had food poisoning last that long.  And I never want it again! 

I had two round of antibiotics, the first which fucked with my intestines and my stomach so badly that I had to the ER several times (twice was for dehydration and once for blood in my stools--tmi, I know, but that bacteria will do that to you).  Then on top of it, we all got Covid and then on top of that, I supposedly passed a kidney stone.  And on top of all of that that, the entire thing gave me a UTI, then I got another UTI right away and I don't even know if the second round of antibiotics worked yet.  Holy fucking shit.  I am so done with this.  I just want to get healthy again, be able to eat properly, and stay healthy!!!  I am eating better now, but it's still hard as I get super bloated very easily.  And my digestion is still screwed up.  

Christmas is a few days away and we've barely done anything, and we've been playing catch-up all week.  Now they all expect me to make lasagna for Christmas, and I can't even eat it!  Ugh.  At least my husband gets 4 days off of work, and hopefully we'll all not be sick or in pain or whatever.  I just want to have fun.  I feel like I am being punished for something, yet I don't know what.  

Anyways.  

Mother is back to her old self, giving me digs at everything I do for her.  This is isn't big enough.  These aren't right.  Blah blah blah.  I don't even care.  I just care about getting and staying healthy and having fun with my family.  

Christmas is in a few days, she has the most presents.  She gave me a list to take her to the store to go pick out $100 worth of scratch and win tickets (lottery) and she doesn't know it yet, but I am never buying tickets again.  They never win and the last time she won?  She used the money to give her to BFF Christmas to go buy her contraband behind my back.  So nope.  No more cash for her.  So, I went to the resale shop yesterday with my youngest and my hubby and we all bought stuff for ourselves from her to give us.  Granted, I didn't get myself anything, but we did get my hubby things and my oldest and I bought her a ton of shit.  Why?  Because I like buying gifts for people, esp. when they are easy to buy for.  AND they are all things she actually needs.  I will buy stuff for my youngest and myself tomorrow.  I would have today, but after going to the store and a doctor's appointment with my hubby, I was wiped and had to come home and take a nap.  Getting my strength back while having so much to do really sucks.  

Though, I did feel great for most of the day, so that's good.  

Also, I am drinking lots of water to help any lingering UTI symptoms flush out of me.  So, a large of my day is spent peeing.  Which is a good thing right now.  

I am still tired, even after my short nap.  So I am playing a video game.  When I am done, I will finish my book that I am almost done with and then I can start another one.  I could have read it in a day, but I was so tired yesterday, too.  We did decorate for Christmas the other day, so that was nice.  I never thought we'd get it done.  My youngest son helped me do everything, which was amazing, otherwise we'd still have autumn/Halloween decor up.  Each day I am getting stronger and eating more, thank goodness.  I still have pain my urethra, but I hope that goes away soon and I don't get another UTI for a long, long time.  Taking new medication gives me massive anxiety, which is something I had to deal with the entire time I was sick.  It was not fun.  

Okay, off to go play my video game.  And maybe if I feel better, I'll bag up some of mother's gifts tonight, but we'll see.  I have like 5 days, so it will get done.  I don't need to push myself.  

Right now I am playing "Child of Light" on Steam, but I am not sure if I like it yet.  It's beautiful, but it's RPG style, which I am not fond of.  I didn't realize that when I bought it.  Maybe if I knew what I was doing better I'd like it more?  I don't know.  I prefer more story-driven and open-world games, like "Life is Strange" or "Horizon Dawn/Forbidden West" or "Dragon Age Inquisition".  My kids call me a "casual gamer", but when I play, I can play for hours on end, so I don't really feel that's all that casual LOL  I hate first person shooters, but anything melee or open world, or story driven, or games with gorgeous graphics I absolutely love.  I also love Stardew Valley and Minecraft.  I guess when I look online for what you'd call me, I found that I am an "explorer" as I am all about exploring maps and storylines.  But yeah, I would still be considered a casual gamer :)  

Okay, off to go wake myself up and make dinner.  Fun!