Sigh.  I am not sure if I like this one.  But I am sticking with her because she has things to teach me.  And I am excited for it.  So even if she sucks as a traditional therapist (or would even suck as a friend--not mine, just anyone's), maybe she's in my life to teach me what I need to know?  So yeah, I am sticking with her for as long as I possibly can.  Though, she really is bugging me.  

When you have a conversation about yourself, your therapist is supposed to ask questions, right?  They are supposed to say "Oh yeah!" or acknowledge that you are speaking in any way, shape, or form, right??  I mean, just something!  But nope.  My therapist changes the subject or talks about what she wants to talk about and NEVER acknowledges that I was just speaking. 

I just don't understand anymore.  What is even going on here?  

I am here to tell you: go with a life coach, they are FAR more helpful than an overpaid therapist!!

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UPDATE:  Nope.  I didn't stick with her.  I saw her a total of four times and the last two times she was supposed to teach me AAIT but didn't and instead used that time to tell me all about her dog.  

And did she ever give me ONE iota of therapy?  Nope.  She just pretended like we were buddies meeting up over coffee, never once asking me how I felt about anything or even listening when I told her about my OCD issues that are severe enough that I need help with.  

WHY IS THIS WHAT WE'RE OFFERED AS PEOPLE WHO NEED THERAPISTS???

So, today I called a new place and now I have a new therapist to see next week.  AGAIN.  

Sigh.  At least someone has openings, thank goodness.  

The lady on the phone said she would give me the other free therapist she has if this one doesn't work out or if the hours don't work out.  

So, we'll see.  

Sigh.  I am so tired of this.  

I will now UPDATE this below with exactly why I left her: 

Many many reasons, but mostly because I think she'd dangerous.  I guess to another patient of hers, she told him (he had borderline personality disorder, and if you know about this, you'll know that suicidal ideation is a part of that disorder) "If I gave you a gun right now, would you kill yourself?"  And she pushed him to do things he didn't want to do.  

And for me?  She looked at me dead in the face and said something that could have changed the medical trajectory of my life.  I have pretty severe anxiety and she knew this and told me when I talked about how scared I was to get my hysterectomy, she said "I had surgery, I died on the table twice during it."  

What in zee fuck?!  

For real, who says that to an anxious person?  And WHY DO I CARE ABOUT WHAT HAPPENS IN HER LIFE???  We were there to talk about MY anxiety, not her bs.  YET every single time I talked about myself, she had some related bs she had to talk about too, never once acknowledging I even said anything at all, other than the fact what she's talking about had to do what I was talking about, except either worse or bigger or better or whatever.  Oh.  My.  God.  

Sigh.  

Yeah, that's why I left her.  She reminds me of so many narcissists I know.  I mean, I have a LOT of things I wrote about her in my review but I don't want rattle on here about it all.  Just know, I made the right choice to leave.