My mother is the same person she always was, and always will be.  She's quiet for a long time, then she gets a hair up her ass and then starts acting up, then I have to post a new sign in the house.  Rinse, lather, repeat.  I am tired talking about it.  She's almost done smoking....just a couple more days.  I gave her one last pack last month, now she's on her second pack that I've bought and I cut each one in half.  I am trying to wean her off in the nicest way possible.  I even put up a calendar for her she will know when they are done.  

You think that will help?  Probably not.  But still, I tried.  

In other news, I went back to the therapist I like.  And he's cool with being my therapist.  I hope he stays being cool with it.  

In other, other news, I (my husband and myself) made $300 at an author fair for our books this past weekend.  It was kind of badass :)  I almost sold out and my hubby sold out with one of his books.  And he's doing amazing with building an audience and a business doing this.  I am such a dork, and I HATE HATE HATE selling myself, but I still sold books, so that's something.  But also, it's my badass cover I designed that's selling it.  So I hope they actually like the book :)  

In other other other news, I get a biopsy next week for my boobsicle.  I had two mammograms, I need another one in 6 months, and I hope my biopsy comes back normal.  I am freaking out a little bit.  But I hope it will be okay.  I am just not thinking about it as much as possible.  

I JUST had a hysterectomy and lost an ovary....and now I have hot flashes every fucking night.  Sigh. But I can't complain, at least I won't have adenomyosis anymore and I won't be pain.  So there's tthat.  And my filthy Mirena IUD is gone (and guess what?? THE DAY IT CAME OUT my blood pressure??? went back to freaking normal!! WHOO HOO!!).  

I am getting ready to launch my YouTube channel, too.  Not about maternal narcissism (though I really should make one), but about me as an author and my stories.  I need to get started on that, but my head is full of cotton again.  I should really do it anyways, cotton or not.  

And I need to finish writing my latest book.  I am almost done.  I just need to do it.  Perhaps I'll do it right now?  Hmm, well, I will try.  Wish me luck.  

Until next time.